Diary of Life

Even I don't know

Written at Monday, 8 July 2013 | back to top

Hi :) I'm here again.

It's about my crush. I'm sure he's bad mood right now. Not sure, but.. just maybe. Just now, my brother don't fetch me on time, so I stand in front of the school gate, waiting for him. Suddenly my friend, Kim say hello to me. I was so happy because I have a friend to talk. At first I ask her about her eyes and whatsoever about girls. We laugh and then I remember she and my crush are classmates. So I pretend to forgot her class. Then I ask her, "what is your class again? *2 or *1?" Just in case, I'm afraid that she will realize that I'm going to talk about him. "*1. how could you forget that.. #laugh " "Oh sorry.. Well, who do you think is the most handsome in your class?" And I felt so stupid, WHY'D I ASKED HER LIKE THAT? but thank God she still not realize. "Hmm, ******** . He is so handsome! Do you know which one is him?" My crush. She's talking about my crush. Yes, can't deny, he is the handsome man I ever met. "Yes, of course I know! but why must him? Everyone tell me like that. #faking laugh" Loser. I'm faking it. "Omg Joyce, don't you know? He is so handsome! He is crazily handsome!" Sorry fella, you know what? I stalk him everyday, stare at him everyday, how could I don't know? "Hahaha, really? Hey but I've listen that Evie (not a real name) like him right? Like, I mean, totally in love?" DAMN. It's hurt to know, but I need to know. "#nod# Yes, she is totally in love. She like him so much, it's her crush. #laugh#" If I can tell the world too, you'll know too. :( "Is he naughty?" "Yes, even I like him before. #laughs# and just now discipline teacher came in our class, and the teacher caned him." "What? Caned? Why?" "Do you know who is Ong? (not a real name) He reported to Teacher Thien that ******** throw away his stuff, but not just this time, last time, Ong reported to T Thien that his RULER was missing. Just a RULER! SO CHILDISH!" My mouth hung open, noooo the fat childish reported to T Thien that his stuff we thrown, but you know what? it's only a tissue!! And the punishment is caned in front of the class? OMG.
"So how's him? Angry?" "Yes, but he just keep quiet. He said he don't want to punch anyone right now." "Whoah, do you mean, like, he always punch peoples?" "No, he never involve in a rumble." "Oh.." And then my brother came.

But the things that make me down today is..

My best friend, Choi tell me like this. "Joyce, isn't Chinese always like their own race? I mean their species. Right? Don't you think?"

YES. Usually like that. But hell ya, I'm SINO. :( but still I'm not CHINESE..

After that, on my way back to home, in the car, I tell my brother that there's a man in my school, he is so handsome, tall and just perfect! But then he told me this, it's like so make me down.. Like he knew that I like him, but I didn't tell anything about the feeling!

"Lady, you know what. It's so hard for him to find a girl." I ask WHY? "Because he is so handsome. He have to find a pretty girl too. Too hard to find a pretty girl, you know?" And I said, NOT REALLY. I DON'T THINK SO. " so you think he will find an ugly girl? NEVER! This is world, Lady. Ugly with ugly. Pretty with pretty. Don't believe me? WELCOME TO THE WORLD."

I don't reply back. I keep quiet until we arrived at home.

I think he is true. Choi is true. Maybe it's only a dream. I don't worth it. hahahaha.
Especially when I saw the very pretty girl in my school talk to him just now, laugh and stare. Haha I felt crazy.

but wait, is it a crime to like him secretly?

EVEN I DON'T KNOW

-Lady :T

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